Random rumblings of a tired mind

The week has been a tiring one. On almost all fronts. I’ve had too much idle time on my hands. This should be a good thing. I would have been able to get creative and come up with some amazing ideas. Well that didn’t happen. Instead, I give a lot of things a lot of thought. Mostly emotional stuff. I second guessed certain choices, I dreamed certain dreams, I felt certain emotions. And now I feel the need to blog a bunch of stuff.

Love is a feeling that is so powerful. It’s greater than fear or pride or hate! It has the intensity to make you or break you. It’s something so fragile that it easily breaks and yet so strong that it is still able to make a comeback so powerful it leaves you stunned. You never see it coming. Sometimes it creeps in slowly and makes itself comfy. Other times in comes in with a big bang you have no choice than to acknowledge it. Bottom line is, you never see it coming. Every love story is written differently.

I’ve been vulnerable before. You know that point where you inner most secrets, failures, sad times are lying there. In the open for people to pick on. What do you do when you reach that point? The point where your friends, frenemies and enemies see your weaknesses. See stuff that they can manipulate and twist to their favor. What do you do? Where do you go to hide from yourself?

So life has all these rules. Some of them I find absolutely silly. And some I find necessary. Rules are good, they give you structure. But at what point do you rule out the silly rules that you won’t live by. Why do we have to make life so complicated? Who says exes can’t be friends? Who says guys and girls can’t just be friends? We all need each other. Yes we do. If we didn’t then maybe God would have placed each one of us on separate islands and we’d stay there. We’d never learn to fight for what’s worth fighting for. So maybe you can call me naive for believing that we can actually live in a world where we can all be friends. Why do we have to make life so complicated?

The greatest period of growth and self discovery is in your 20s. Yes sometimes by the time you’re halfway to 30, you don’t really know what your doing with your life. But at least you’ve tried out a bunch of stuff and have come to know what works for you and what doesn’t. Keep calm because you’re narrowing down your options. You are closer today than you were yesterday. So enjoy your 20s. They won’t last forever.

Apply wisdom and smarts to everything. Look to God as the source and definition of who you are. As human beings, our views of how we see other are subject to change most of the time depending on how we feel about ourselves at that particular time. And being objective is difficult but not impossible. I’ll borrow someone’s words to say this and also add a few of my own “People are fragile things so be careful what you say to them or what you put them through. They break when you force them and they break when you don’t try”.

So, it’s okay to love. It’s okay to show some weakness. It’s okay to try out something new. It’s okay to sometimes just close your eyes and jump. And it’s okay to think things through twice or thrice depending on what you prefer. Yes it sucks when things don’t work out but at least you embraced the spirit of adventure and gave it a shot. Don’t berate yourself too much. God has a plan for each of our lives. Don’t give up too soon. Life still goes on.

Don’t be afraid of the unknown.



2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. kapeyisamson (@skapeyi)
    Oct 27, 2013 @ 00:49:54

    Awesome, you can actually write!!!


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